It has been such a long while since I "let fly what's bothering me in my heart" and the reason is simple as I have found some form of serenity when I re-married again back in 2013.
In my years working, I was constantly referred to as an ARROGANT person and truth is I am, for all the right and wrong reasons. No matter what is the situation, normally I would fight back against anything or anyone who "steps on feet or cross my turf".
At some point in time, I became so over my head that I became everybody's enemy but my own and situation was getting bad to worst. Then I stopped and re-evaluate my life, as I gradually learnt to calm down and observe things from another prospective. It was not easy but gradually with lots of difficulty (within me) I had to make a change.
After the gradual reform, I felt better internally as I breathe better and the heart was not that heavy as before though I am faced with the usual crap at work. Sometimes even a nice guy have to become a meaner person than before cause in truth "good guys always finish last OR even not at all"
Sometimes I really wonder does it help to be a nice guy in my industry, the answer is NO as at the end of the day, it is all about interests and things doesn't go well people would resort to back-stab and malign you.
How about silence? Does being silent means well? The answer is YES / NO as some would assume that our silence is our weakness, it could get worst or for the better but in most cases it would just get worst. The 'assaults' or 'insults' would just keep on coming as they would feel that they have the upper hand without considering the fact that people keeps silent just to avoid confrontation and misunderstanding.
So I really wonder does age really change us all?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-JQ1q-13Ek
